On Finding What Was Always Right in Front of Me

Happy New Year, Good People!

I have to mention that I reluctantly shifted my gaze from the dazzling fireworks on New Year’s Eve to observe the celestial display: twinkling constellations, star clusters, steady planetary lights, and the captivating waxing gibbous moon.

Some predict — not based on the shining moon, but on Trend Forecasting & Analytics 2025-2032 — that 2026 will be a year of hope and breakthroughs, among other things. So, here’s to turning the page and writing a new, radiant chapter!

Image of fireworks on New Year’s Eve

Before I ease into the new year and move forward, I always look back. So, at the start of 2025, I chose my guiding word: focus. It wasn’t a productivity catchphrase. It was a way to live sanely through what I expected would be an overwhelming year with post-election hangover energy, global crises, and constant noise.

In my post, On Targeted Focus, I wrote about narrowing attention to what I could touch: my immediate surroundings and my essential equipment: writing and support system. I didn’t realise how literal that would become.

So, in the spirit of targeted focus, community, and doors that opened, I’m sharing memorable moments and lessons learned.

1. A small brave return

The year opened in Finland the way it usually does: white, sharp and honest. Instead of snuggling up indoors, I stepped outside and did something that felt huge—I drove a snowmobile again after years of crippling anxiety. There’s an entire story behind of how pre-menopause and COVID gifted me anxiety… So, that ride wasn’t just a hobby. It was a choice to return, focusing on just one breath, one ride. Yes, it’s me there at the front, literally waiting for others to catch up. 🙂

Image of me and my family snowmobiling in Levi

2. The best gift I gave myself

Then in February, I gave myself the best gift of the year: I joined the Finnish-African Society as a volunteer. Often, we think of support systems as something we “get” if we’re lucky. But sometimes you build them. Sometimes you volunteer your way into belonging. Sometimes, support comes when you join something larger than yourself. Focus meant being present in my local community.

Over the course of the year, FAS became a place where my love for storytelling, the written word and culture flourished in real time. In turn, I met interesting people, had meaningful conversations, took part in energising events, and all through a shared effort. The world didn’t get less chaotic, but I felt both held and grounded.

3. A deep dive into AI without letting it steal my attention

Years ago, I was the oldest student, a Gen Xer, in an introductory class about AI. I remember how pissed off I was as I listened to the workings of AI and predictions about its future role. I also remember how the younger students, millennials and Gen Zs, were so excited about the ways technology continues to evolve.

Last year, my UX design studies allowed for a deep investigation of AI. I asked better questions, especially about its ethical use. I tested assumptions, and I learned enough to understand the tool. This was also part of focusing, and curiosity with boundaries, and not letting the loudest voices drown reason. Now, I’m in a place where I’m neither worshipping AI nor panicking about it.

4. Spring with floods of ideas, a story and a bridge

The year truly begins in spring. Fresh creative ideas arrived like birds returning. It was a good problem to have—so many stories to tell, so many directions. So, focusing meant choosing an idea that deserved my energy; and I stayed with fiction.

A story is like the wind. It comes from a far-off place, and we feel it.”

This proverb attributed to the people of the Kalahari stayed with me. Because that’s how Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie’s visit felt — something written elsewhere arriving here and stirring a room into being.

This was one of the moments I could feel the lineage of stories, the way literature travels and gathers people. Focus also looked like a bridge connecting continents, strangers, private acts of reading and the public act of building culture together.

5. A season to be happy. Period.

Summer doesn’t require a thesis. And Finnish summer makes one understand why people here endure the long winter with so much patience. The season brought the kind of happiness my targeted focus made room for. These were uncomplicated, perhaps unearned, but allowed moments to experience joy without apologising for it, and focusing on relationships that matter.

An image of Sting at the Pori Jazz festival

6. A highlight I’ll carry for years

In June, I had the privilege and pleasure of meeting the first lady of Finland (and briefly, the president). It was an experience made possible by Adichie’s book, and the shared love of African literature we foster through the Finnish-African Society.

It’s difficult to describe what that visit signified without sounding like I’m bragging. But the truth is, it impressed my heart more than my ego. It’s about what happens when you show up for something you believe in — creative expression, literature, cultural exchange… Unexpectedly, you find yourself in rooms you never imagined entering. This was one highlight of my year.

7. Finding beauty in unexpected places

Autumn held travel. Travel is a kind of focus, too, as it forces attention. It invites one to notice how the sun seems brighter in another location, the cadence of an unfamiliar language, the kindness of strangers, and the beauty tucked inside places you didn’t expect to cherish.

I found myself moved not only by the iconic, but by the unexpected. The in-between places and moments that don’t fit neatly into a caption. Maybe that was the theme of 2025: the best parts weren’t the loudest.

An image of Lisbon’s iconic Tram 28

Even November in Finland — when darkness can sink into the body and trigger seasonal affective disorder — found me steady. Despite the chaos in the world, I stayed focused on routine, community, movement, meaning, and rest. I’m grateful for my health, and showing up for myself.

What focus ended up meaning

Focus didn’t just protect me from overwhelm. It returned me to myself. It connected me to my people; the African diaspora in Finland and the Nordic region. It led me to rooms with warm bodies and genuine laughter, and the kind of meaning one can’t measure with likes. I thought I was choosing a coping strategy, but I was choosing to show up. And to quote Phillip Lim, I was also choosing to connect with whomever is (physically) close to me.

As always, and regardless of the “word” practice, I’d love to hear about your 2025. What did you focus on, big or small? Please do share! 🙂

When Thanks Surrenders to Rest

Finnish winters have a kind of magic, but it’s a quiet one — not glittering, not showy. Some people romanticize the snow, but they often forget the cold, the darkness, the long stretch of it all. For a girl born under the African sun, among people who speak in warmth and laughter, winter here can feel like someone dimmed the world. These months usually ask us, at least me, to find the glow from within rather than chasing brightness outside.

So, as the light fades, dust loses its gold, and the days speak more softly, the landscape feels less busy and more honest. This is the season that encourages us to conserve warmth, attention, and effort— not to produce but to attune.

Despite the celebratory rush of the season, I’m slowing down. I’m trying to listen, to release the urge to tally outcomes, and to be present within the quiet moments and the changing rhythm of the year.

Sauna by the lakeside

The poem below emerged from that quiet noticing. It’s a reminder that rest is not the absence of effort, but its companion. And for me, gratitude doesn’t always look like celebration. Sometimes it looks like stepping back, lowering the shoulders, and letting the body claim what it needs.

I Open My Eyes and Give Thanks

Thanksgiving —
a perpetual state of being
big and small offerings
no matter the season
for every morning
I open my eyes
and give thanks

Days fall off the calendar
it’s not about quantity
the grind but pledging
have I done enough
for each day
I search for beauty
and give thanks

Years start and end
with promise and hope
no matter the demands
every body needs rest
even the one
clothed in brown
learning to claim

As I pause my writing here for the rest of the year, I offer this piece as both a reflection and a permission slip for myself, and maybe for anyone else who needs it. And now, I turn inward to rest, trusting words will return with energy.

Outdoor Decorative Lights

Thank you — truly — to everyone who continues to read and support my writing; your presence adds warmth to this space. I look forward to returning in the new year.

Wishing you and your loved ones a peaceful and joyous holiday season!

Stories, Connections, and Conversations: Inside the 2025 Helsinki Book Fair

Celebrating its 25th anniversary, the Helsinki Book Fair embraced “knowledge and joy” as the core theme described by organisers as “what the best literature gives us: the power of civilization and the joy of reading.” The fair was alive with the unmistakable energy of people brought together by the love of literature.

Book fairs’ true allure is in creating literary relationships, far beyond just the sale of books. It’s writers and readers, stories and communities, and all literary stewards in their multifaceted roles, sharing space.

Preparation and Literary Citizenship


All this takes a lot of preparation, and I can only speak for myself. Beyond the visible work — organising books, curating visuals, packing essentials, rehearsing for talks — there’s another kind of preparation that matters just as much: preparing one’s mindset.

As we know, writing is often a solitary act, but events like these are a reminder that being an author also means stepping into public spaces: meeting readers, engaging in dialogue, and representing not just ourselves but a wider community of writers.

Working together with my fellow authors at our shared exhibition stand was a valuable reminder of that. We took turns volunteering, keeping to our shifts, and promoting one another’s books as enthusiastically as our own.

I’d especially like to give a shout-out to my fellow panellists and our moderator for their superb spirit of collaboration. Great conversations don’t just happen — generous minds and open hearts sharing space together create them.

Image of my fellow panelists and our moderator at the book fair

In the lead-up to our panel, we worked closely behind the scenes to shape a meaningful discussion. Each brought ideas, time, and encouragement with a sense of shared purpose rather than competition. For me, that’s the essence of literary citizenship.

In writing communities where egos can sometimes get in the way, this generosity felt both grounding and encouraging. It was proof that the best literary moments are born not from individual spotlights, but from collective spirit.

Also, literary citizenship (for me) means staying open to new ideas and conversations shaping the world of books. The following are a few topics that stirred more debate this year.

Conversations That Stood Out

Conversations about AI are divisive, and often focus on risk, ethics, and the future of human imagination. In fact, there’s one interesting discussion I missed, loosely translated as “F*** AI – why human translators are needed more than ever.”

But could artificial intelligence also open up new opportunities for writers? I’m not here to convince anyone to use AI — or not to; that’s not my place. Anyway, discussions about literature and AI interested me most.

What struck me most was how AI is beginning to transform even the most established creative fields. And it seems some traditional publishers are catching up with independent presses, who have long viewed AI as a tool to enhance, not replace, what humans can do.

Image of UNICEF panel at the Helsinki Book Fair

One enlightening discussion was by the UNICEF panel speaking about their collaboration with OpenAI to reinvent textbooks. Their goal is to make learning materials more accessible — not just for children with disabilities, but for all children. Perhaps this shows that innovation driven by empathy and purpose can broaden knowledge and promote inclusivity.

The discussion on AI was just one of many thought-provoking themes that shaped this year’s fair. Talks ranged from our relationship with nature and the climate crisis to global politics. The changing landscape of the Middle East, Palestine and Israel, the ongoing battle for Ukraine, and the UN’s “Protecting the People Behind the Numbers” on migration, were among others.

Image of an audience listening to the streamed interview

The President of Finland, whose latest book, Vallan kolmio or The Triangle of Power, explores global power dynamics, drew a large audience. He filled the entire main arena without even being there in person as we listened intently to his streamed interview.

On the Semantics of the Word “Civilization”

Learning of this year’s theme, “… the power of civilization and the joy of reading,” prompted a lively behind-the-scenes debate about the use of the word civilization among my co-panellists and me.

For those of us from formerly colonised nations, the term carries a heavy history. It has long been used to demean, define, and dominate people once labelled as “uncivilised.” Even literature, in its own way, has been complicit in “civilising” the world by silencing other voices. That’s why our first reaction was, what?

Our ever-patient moderator helped reframe the brainstorming session, explaining that civilization translates as “sivistys” in Finnish. This word embodies self-betterment and ethical awareness; that knowledge builds empathy and makes us more humane.

Image with our chosen take on “civilization”

While there were many interpretations of sivistys at the book fair, our own approach was based on asking how Afro-Nordic voices, grounded in connection and community, might help re-imagine a more inclusive form of civilization. Hence, the topic: “Our Stories: The Role of Afro-Nordic Voices in Shaping Civilization”.

Regarding presenting at the book fair, one criticism we heard was “what’s the point?”, referring to the visible absence of African or Black audiences at these events. This concern is valid and part of a broader conversation about representation. But it left me thinking, what’s the point of preaching only to the converted? That is, I’m also interested in engaging those who have the power to open doors that remain closed.

The Heart of It All

Meeting the readers… ♥ At its core, the purpose of a book fair is to bring writers and readers into conversation — to remind us that stories truly come alive when shared. Beyond the exchange of books, it’s the moments of connection that linger: the brief yet meaningful conversations across signing tables, the smiles, and the stories behind each purchase.

Image of writers and readers sharing the joy

I was deeply touched by readers who bought my books not only for themselves but as gifts for their loved ones. As I personalised each dedication, I was privy to beautiful, often moving stories about why they felt my book would be the perfect for a loved one going through a hard time, a partner who loves poetry, or a friend celebrating a milestone.

Each conversation reminded me that a book travels far beyond its pages. It carries emotions, hopes, and memories of those who give and receive it. In those precious exchanges, I realised writers also gain something — the privilege of seeing how our words connect with readers. Face-to-face interaction is unmatched!

New Bonds and Shared Journeys

It’s always inspiring to meet the minds behind the stories. A few authors I connected with left lasting impression. It was not only through their books but through the conversations we shared about process, purpose, and persistence. Each exchange felt less like an introduction and more like the beginning of a shared journey; a connection that will continue beyond the fair’s halls.

Their books, each in its own way, capture the beauty of curiosity and connection that defined this year’s fair, for me.

1. kai alonte — Somewhere Soft to Land
Debut novel coming April 2026 — now available for pre-order! A story about sisterhood and a friendship in peril.

2. Mirva Haltia — Grunga
A trilingual poetry collection that’s both compelling and enlightening — truly a gift. I devoured it!

3. Sanna Vainikainen — Karppi kaupassa – kalarunokirja
A witty poetry collection for kids, celebrating the quirky traits of fish. I bet even adults could learn a thing or two!

4. Mariam Naiem — A Brief History of a Long War: Ukraine’s Fight Against Russian Domination
Coming January 2026 — already available for pre-order! A timely and vital read that I can’t wait to dive into.

See more photos and moments from these encounters on Instagram!

Then The After Party

If the daytime hours were for panels and book signings, the evening belonged to the after party. It was that cheerful blur where writers, editors, and publishers mingle under the warm glow of delightful music and free wine.

An image with some of my fellow writers

The atmosphere, predictably, thrived on a liquid diet: an abundance of drinks, laughter, and stories that flowed more freely than submission pitches. For once, no one was pleading for a manuscript to be read or a contract to be signed. It was just writers enjoying the rare luxury of being off duty, if only for a night.

Final Reflections

As the lights dimmed and the last books were stowed, what lingered most was not just the panels or the pages, but the people — the conversations, the laughter, the shared love of stories that transcend boundaries. If you’re an introvert who’s like me tends to avoid live author events, I challenge you to try them in 2026.

To everyone who came by to say hello, bought a book, or shared a story — thank you.
Your support fuels my writing. Until the next book fair, keep reading, keep connecting, and keep the stories alive!

PS. The Finnish-African Society, an NGO that promotes African literature, among other things, made my participation at the Helsinki Book Fair possible.

PPS: Used photos that are not mine with permission.